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Dear Journal

by Chris Mack

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1.
Butterfly Effect feat. Shaina Shroll Verse 1: Emo emo rapping, all the way through the quest Hardly put my hands together like the T-Rex I love the heeds that come from my master they hard to follow That's the case when you can't get what your after, love the chase I can't quick pay on my terms, but there is grace and I get frustrated when there's mornings I don't feel like praying, I’m lazy But maybe, I'll be okay if I let this slip up I know that I'm forgiven when my crap is given up And so i'll take an L on this one, I'll call a butterfly I'll call an audible, and try again, another time I'll do it tomorrow like it was promised pay homage give interest like I was listening Sing another day, pray another day, save another day I will feed the hungry on another day It takes a while for them growth spurts Can't use a hot comb, them nappy roots will cause them neck burns Can't force it or can't fake it or can't wait it out The problem is, I’d rather wait it out Chorus: Here I am right now I am here to love you But only for a while Please help me to trust you Verse 2: Day one I love you daddy your so awesome Day two your showing me all of your traits and virtues Day three your love is unconditional Day four I forgot to spend my day with you it's okay Day five I missed you again, but thank you for that meal Day six I can tell my patience getting really thin Day seven the word don't seem so very urgent to me Day eight emergency, emergency, ah Emo emo rapping, all the way through this quest Hardy put my hands together like a T-Rex I love the heeds that come from my master and yet it's crazy That my flesh hates what my soul loves, I know what I must listen to My past actions they don't define me but they matter If their quick to play a role in my disaster And this past will soar inside a time machine, if I allow it Changing natural reality, unless the maker dismounts it, here I, here I am Chorus: Here I am right now I am here to love you But only for a while Please help me to trust you
2.
Glass House 03:14
Glass House Verse 1: Whom shall I fear most? A misquote so I gotta cast fear aside, because the only one that I fear is God Locked in what I did inside, I never did kill the pride I took a wall and stacked it to the sky just to hide and protect my demise Alright alright let me put this sin aside, and let me trust in God Cause in this glass house, you only see what the light shines And darkness tries to co-resign, and share the bed where my heart lies The arteries are blocked by the past, flow won't move until my heart, beats, fast So let's smash it, the misconceptions I follow one path, but have some questions My ceiling fan, spins one direction Fast or slow need to go your pace, power won't stop this Oh you thought my life wasn't ruckus, I hate the dark like ruckus But I'm still in this land before my time is even up So till then I'll fight this battle flesh and spirit knuckle up Let my light shine and let my heart show, the darkness that's exposed. Chorus: Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Hold up hold up. hold up hold up Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Give me everything in this glass house Give me (x10) Give me everything in this glass house Give me (x10) Give me everything Verse 2: My notebook has content that I am not proud of My glasshouse shows all of this crap to get out of Y'all don't wanna hear that mess nah, but y’all need to I don't wanna deceive you, and as a man of faith I speak better when I'm weak too My heart, ungrateful, better thank the Lord for that oatmeal That you eating every morning, getting boring But my mind, distasteful, and I still have that lust appeal I got bros that hold me accountable cause this temptation is too real And my siblings grown up, and I love em yes But I don't call em enough, got me asking questions When in second guessing stressing if my time on campus cutting all affections I work hard but I don't love hard grandma said why must I be reminded of a phone call Sorry grandma, said I'll do better I'm at higher standards I feel like at times I'm failing We’re just getting started through these journal entries Holy Spirit please start working in me, hold up Chorus: Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Hold up hold up. hold up hold up Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Hold up hold up, hold up hold up Give me everything in this glass house Give me (x10) Give me everything in this glass house Give me (x10) Give me everything
3.
Late Nite 04:19
Late Nite Chorus (x2): The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The poetry of late nights The danger of a late night The danger of a late night Emotions of a late night The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The splendor of a late night The danger of a late night The danger of a late night The hinder of a late night 
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Beauty in the nature more than fewer Free lands celebrated like free bands in the future And when the sun is down, night stars give me the run down Lessons like there is beauty and some truth inside this night now I see the stars revelation I never saw the west coast nights for proper celebration When eyelids become the shield that will contain the thoughts Of all the things I often think at 3am 
I said I'm vulnerable to say the least I’m so emotional The only ones that are up are me and this stupid light bulb, The sign of life is minimal Critical I set my thoughts on some other individual I wonder if my last girl’s looking at the stars I wonder why my music hasn’t blasted off I wonder, should I give into my lustful thoughts? I wonder, should I go to bed and knock it off?
 Pre Chorus: Evil is after me, beauty is after me Evil is after me and the beauty is after me The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe I said evil is after me, beauty is after me Evil is after me and the beauty is after me The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe Chorus: The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The poetry of late nights The danger of a late night The danger of a late night Emotions of a late night The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The splendor of a late night The danger of a late night The danger of a late night The hinder of a late night Verse 2: Wanted to take a trip to nowhere I guess I had the courage After the night shift guess I had the urge to play the calmest measures, Josh Garrels Got the car started Put the car on cruise control going forty miles Driving down the road I admire all the while Looking at the night lights basic city lights I enjoy the night lights, I enjoy the night life Stopped up at the red light, by the bar I'm seeing all my people getting tipsy walking by not trying to get a D.U.I I'm trying to do my best not to hit the sweaty cause he is stumbling with every step he takes Five-O, with the sirens chilling on the brakes Woman in the handcuffs, she about to have a case Ain't nobody trying to sleep, but if they gotta Then they might say goodnight to the crazy beauty of a late night Pre Chorus: Said the evil is after me, beauty is after me Evil is after me and the beauty is after me The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe I said evil is after me, beauty is after me Evil is after me and the beauty is after me The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe The light upon a hill’s the reason that I believe Chorus: The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The poetry of late nights The danger of a late night The danger of a late night Emotions of a late night The beauty of a late night The beauty of a late night The splendor of a late night The danger of a late night The danger of a late night The hinder of a late night
4.
Integrity 04:11
Integrity Verse 1 Papa said son, even though I'm the head better get your head right Did I make mistakes better believe you dead right Let your feet bike before you see the street lights And if I catch you acting stupid we “gon” have a dead fight Memoirs of moi at a younger age Wish I could of said I've seen better days Momma home alone guess I won't see dad today Father used to gang bang but now I see em pray And at one point, saw life worthless But God brought change, and it all makes sense Used my dad to, change my life too Him along with, my whole youth group Told me son you are blessed by you know who And you need to seek the truth you’re used to Flesh sees edibles, don’t follow see-food These streets they seek you, drinks will sink you, girls will please you Oh they'll try to My God he's right, sometimes I denied you You saved my life no surprise, you showed me in the Bible Now it's about time that I crush these idols Growing up its about time that I raise disciples Get meek, this race that I'm running is without rivals This relationships a marriage I'm running way down the aisle Gotta find my satisfaction in the one that I can dial, cause Jesus on the main line Chorus: Integrity will go a long way When it will never go my way, I know y'all heard this one I grew up a screw up Got introduced to the name to the name And then I grew up And then I grew up And then I grew up Verse 2: What it mean to live right What it mean to live right
What it mean to live right What it mean to live right What it mean to live My sin aims wide, shotgun I'm trying to live my life like the Godfather When I need to live out my life as the God son And hear ye when I say I try Means that I respond to who he is and all the things that he's done My integrity's for God's sake Who I am is cause of God's grace And seismic plates try to switch these standards When a lack of understanding wants to demand answers The bottom line's I want to serve the king well I wish that every part of me could only mean well But with the lust and the pride and the people pleasing, and the selfish attitude I should receive hell But thank God that the stains are washed away My gratitude reflects my attitude My longitudes directed into, a latitude I have no bragging rights and that is the status Q So I tell you my integrity is held by the upper realm The one who leans over earth and keeps me overwhelmed It's probably best that my flesh don't have its way And leave the heart change to his sovereign grace Sermon Clip by Timothius Pope: “Some of y’all got some secret sin sitting up in this mug right now, and you don’t wanna tell nobody cause you arrogant…if I disobey in anyway I can go right to the father and say, ‘God, I throw myself on your mercy. I have no right to be in front of you, but you’ve given me your son Jesus.’” Chorus: Integrity will go a long way When it will never go my way, I know y'all heard this one I grew up a screw up Got introduced to the name to the name And then I grew up And then I grew up And then I grew up (x2)
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Chief of Sinners Verse 1: I write this letter just to speak about the truth that's written better To all my friends who look up to me as a higher standard To all of my supporters of my music and my motives To all my family members thinking I'm the chosen Moses To all the non-believers fooled by Christian snobby figures To all the skeptics dancing round relationship with Jesus To opposite beliefs that claim that they are one with truth To all the co-exists that think beliefs will all allude a broader path to go I got some garbage that I need to show A glamorous life will never benefit your soul or mine And so I figured I could be the honest one instead of lie Upon a bed of lies or give a lovely paved facade Feel you need to get the water poured up on you so do I And what happened really shouldn't happen here's an honest trailer When I flip the pages of all my wrongs of all of my ages of all of my actions Of all of my thoughts of all conversations See I inherited sin, that I was born in Got some generational curses that were in storage Saw the weed the beverages but it wasn't important Women carried the apple of appetizing distortion I wanted women, I wanted women in close quarters Physical and emotional lock em inside the boarders Traveled along the corridor, just to get the high It's like I'm up on cloud nine, stacking feelings to the sky I hated thoughts of profession, so I kept it inside Fearing what man would think and I'm leaving room for the pride I grew up to be a God in my mind, the people love me Parents love me, I was an image beyond the prize Can't nobody touch me ain't nobody messing wit me I had a mic so when I rapped I was investing in me So even when I spoke of God inside the music that I played It was the times behind the stage, I would never even pray Had a phase when I just sprinkled Christian lingo on a rhyme scheme And that's a misconduct Thought that God would be okay if I just said his name and talked about my awesomeness Never really felt right on my consciousness Can't forget decline in my fan base, started losing traffic Saw some other rappers for Jesus reaching the masses Never got he chance to hang and so I felt my jealousy My case, wasn't right if they was right and I was mad Bitter bite in the dog pound, best if I speak it now Before I even let the hounds sniff me out I am a prideful man, and I don't like to admit it But it does my heart good when you say that you get it I know my friends need Jesus but I don't speak my peace I know that I need Jesus, break these chains off of me I know my cousins look to me but they be caught in the streets And I don't take time to feed em or believe in em, I’m the chief of sinners boy Verse 2: Father in heaven hallowed be thy name Thy kingdom come, thy will be done as it is in heaven I need the lights on like thee 7-Eleven Always wanted a golden ticket, just to enter heaven I remember the time when my faith came real Invited to youth group, didn't know I would build Them white kids, they would sing and they would stand so still But I guarantee they knew the purpose of their sword and their shield And as a black man finally understood and was drawn to it In desperate need of saving needed to respond to it I'm a sinner given grace, in Jesus I put my faith helping me kill my sin daily every single day I'd be a liar if I said I walked it in perfection everyday But by the blood of Christ I'm perfect and I'm saved I don't owe my flesh a thing cause I'm no longer a slave I am free and I don't need to bow to sin Lord help me, Lord help me, I'm tempted to view these women wrong Need to swerve when I'm looking at them too long The father told me cut it out cause it will do him wrong What's even worse is I don't gain but I just miss it all Glory in heaven with my savior my Lord, that's the measure And in this kingdom is forever everlasting pleasure Better than the sex, better than the rep Better than the status I just haven't seen it all yet But Holy Spirit help me wait for it, and till then You are my helper, and I can resist sin The chief of sinners is ready to turn his crown in So I’ll stand for you Lord, unbounded
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10-10 02:32
10/10 Chorus (x2): Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better I can't even get myself a letter Verse 1: I'm the problem that Jesus solved Music equates to nothing unless my father's involved Lyrics amount to rubbish if I don't follow my walk And my talk is silenced if I am not loving people at all Applause two the running Paul, truth letting off the rounds Proof is what's in the ground, for his glory I'm using sounds Waves that his sea will bring, waters the greatest element Check out my Eloquence when you're sipping his beverage This is the end of this road, day one killing this with a pencil on the instrumental With the info gotta carry cases of the basics I'm a craftsman I'm a blacksmith They want trapping no craft see they don't want the mac and cheese with this action Rather get a golden calf, but I will eat the real and fattest half Chorus (x2): Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better I can't even get myself a letter Verse 2: See I'm an infant, I'm a kid, I am an adolescence Many things to learn I don't boast with the most but I spit what is lesser The pressure becomes even small when I sin, the wrong that I'm in, is killed when I'm right with the ten The ten out of ten he is perfect the highest about is the highest on surface Humans are cats in the water, we don't even know how to swim This man told me to paddle, another man said (try again) I'm sinking I need a savior I probably won't even live Till the captain pulled me from under, told me to get back in I am a tree I will plant these seeds, odd how I do it with a word and a beat Try to give you substance veggies and meat it don't mean your teeth will always sink My word way better when we talk off stage and I walk that Pray the word make the homie get up off that I ain't trying to let the world take my soul When I'm living right here, and I ain't even home Chorus (x2): Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better Ten out of ten there ain't nothing better I can't even get myself a letter
7.
Love 04:18
Love Verse 1: I didn't wanna twist this flow, so y'all can hear me I need y'all to get this flow, will you come near me Dearly, I assure your not insured without a plan Unless man progressive and loveth another man Masculine over the feminine plurals It applies to the XX and the XY's Generally speaking we need to learn to love mankind See in the twentieth twentieth century it's an eye for an eye That's why my sight is of no relevance, for my peace My spirit teaches me to seek the end that I can't see We love a poor man unless we with a group of friends And wait to see the group of friends make a stand, and then we do something Don't be a coward with your lovin I am a broken record what I say is what you've heard Some combination speeches with a different set of words Man defines the word love or least he tries to But we don't know of love unless we read it in the bible Got a father in the pages got a savior as the model Learned the meaning of a leader when I put my mic aside to Get involved on my campus find some people that I need to invest in Wasn't for me, it was for their own benefit I remember many of my brothers pouring into me Learning about this manhood, fighting against the enemy Fighting against the inner me the sin in me it envies my soul Real love triumphs, let the evil go See I wouldn't even know how to love, the real love Everlasting love coming from the heavens above And that’s right Verse 2: If I didn't love my God I couldn't love y'all I'm talking love, coming from above y'all I wouldn't give up my son for your sins But guess what, I know who did, and that's the most high Demonstrated his love, Jesus came to us Endured the pain for us, could of refrained from us And yet the Gospel wouldn't be the gospel Unless messiah came out the ground and did the impossible Probably wonder what's love doing with what I'm saying If I wasn't sharing, how much would I have to hate a man If I believe the Gospel of the savior is the way to be redeemed You can bet I'm planting these seeds, and I will walk that And every now and then I'll proclaim it in a song format Upon his floor mat, wipe my shoes, jacket on the coat rack Bless the Lord cause he's my comfort and soul Doesn't mean my life is easy, but I know where to go I got a father I can talk to when I'm disobedient When I'm lenient, when I'm misleading and, when I'm mischievous When I need a slapping in the hand, when I need joy and strength When I'm singing songs and hymns, or write a song to build connection When I need to reach my peers and friends, when I walk as a man When I flee past addition and, embrace the truth within March on my fellow troops and then your life will begin A day is coming when the bride will see her lover again And that's love
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Hope feat. Jenny Rheume Chorus: Everyday we feel this pain I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer Need someone to take this pain We need something to hope for We need something to hope for We need something to hope for Verse 1: Hanging with the fellas summer started Eating like a king at Olive Garden Waitress at the table just to greet us Asked us what we'd like to eat first But first would you like a glass of wine with your starter Sorry, I usually just get a water Got some sass, a lot of humor for a person But truth be told, the inside she was hurting Cause a couple weeks ago she said her sister passed away Hard to smile with her face, cast away the rain Rather die and dig her grave to meet the makers name And hope that death is better just to take away the pain Chorus: Everyday we feel this pain I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer Need someone to take this pain We need something to hope for We need something to hope for We need something to hope for Verse 2: Downtown at the circle On a Sunday, parking's free Saw a fella with a cup of change Got some scruff on his goatee My backpack got some chance that I forgot about Told him he could have it when I pulled it out Got to know his story why he stopped working On the railroad and now his back hurting Got some surgery to try to fix the problem Took a couple nuts and bolts but it could never really solve it Wants to work, but his burden is a physical condition But he prays that his condition won't affect a job position Chorus: Everyday we feel this pain I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer Need someone to take this pain We need something to hope for We need something to hope for We need something to hope for Verse 3: I've felt rain on the sunniest days the scattered clouds Shake it off is like drying off without a towel And so I let the son bring the sunshine Don't ignore the hard times, give it all to divine I met a lot of people in the middle of the struggle The ones that's outside of the Christian bubble Father son and the ghost are the ones That make it better and the ones that these people gonna hope for Chorus (x3): Everyday we feel this pain I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer I know we're getting closer Need someone to take this pain We need something to hope for We need something to hope for We need something to hope for
9.
Journal Pages Verse 1: I got an excerpt When my chest hurts When the pain’s real When I feel cursed When I’m an object, I’m worn out And when I can’t give, I’m pourn out My songs are too sung, I feel like Sheol My lips are too numb, I cannot kneel My pen’s too dense I am convinced that this despair is so real And you don’t care, father Abba abba father, if I’m an heir then what’s the problem Why do I suffer, why do I gotta What’s up with the monster that rests inside the ink and lays upon the pages Use the line break as blankets, and each phrase is so contagious What’s this all about, tell me what’s this pain about Did I not confess my sins, did we not just work this out I offer my words to you, my Lord, my journal, I’ll wait So make me humble, don’t want to cause you trouble Chorus (x2): I don’t know what to say say say say say say I got this pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain You said you know my way way way way way way Write on these pages it will all be okay Verse 2: I got an excerpt When my heart heals When I feel no pain When my faith builds When I’m a vessel, I don’t wear out And when I give, I pour out My songs are praises, I feel like haven My limbs are too strong, I feel like praying My pen’s a quill I am convinced that his presence is so real And you do care, father Abba abba father, if I’m an heir I have no problem And when I suffer, I know I gotta, no monster I fear I know you hear me, I know you’re near me You gave your life up on that cross you love me and you sealed me Now what’s this all about, tell me what’s this all about Washed away all of my sins, so you already worked that out I offer my life to you, my Lord, my journal, you proved the wait And I am humbled, I’ll never cause you trouble Pre Chorus: I don’t know what to say say say say say say I got this pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain You said you know my way way way way way way Write on these pages it will all be okay I don’t know what they say say say say say say I got this pain pain pain pain pain, man You said you know my way way way way way way Write on these pages and it will all be okay Chorus: I don’t know what to say say say say say say I got this pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain You said you know my way way way way way way Write on these pages it will all be okay

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released January 23, 2017

© Christopher “Chris Mack” Mack // All Rights Reserved. Unauthorized Duplication is Punishable by Federal Law.
Music Production by “Colton Smith” (Track 6 & 8), “DG Beats” (Track 1, 5, & 9), “Theory” (Track 2), “Triple A Beats” (Track 3), “Tone Jonez” (Track 4), & “SilvaSurfr” (Track 7)
Writing by Christopher Mack
Recordings by Chris Mack (Tracks 1-7 & 9) & Colton Smith ( Track 8)
Mixing by Chris Mack (Tracks 1-5) & Colton Smith (6-9)
Mastering by Colton Smith
Photo Design by: Arianna Torres
Font Layout by: Katie Morario

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Here is where you can enjoy my extensive creative catalog. Some of this music is from earlier releases. Other songs are on leased beats. Because of copyright issues, some of these projects aren't available on paid streaming platforms, but I always want it to be available to my fans who have benefited greatly from these songs for free. Enjoy!

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